Je bekijkt de reis...
Reisverslag Eternal temporality of life
8 april 2015
Eternal temporality of life
The rain becomes more frequent and the days and nights start to get chilly and short... The touristic crazyness of Byron Bay came to a sudden end after a hectic Easter weekend wich filled this little town with weekend-tourists and Bluesfest party people.
Now the streets are quiet again. Like Byron catches back her breath after this weekend and the busy summer months.
I have a bit of this en-of-summertime sadness. That feeling you had when you were a kid the last days of your holiday. Not wanting it to end and not looking forward to going back to school.
Unfortunately at this point the summertime sadness about an ending holiday seems a bit easier to process than the one I feel in this phase. But life has it's own way of going and won't wait for me to be ready to go with it again. It just goes the way it has to go, for everyone, and all you need to do is accept it and go with it. At least it's easy to put down in words! Now I'll have to practice :)
A little series of events made me go through this phase at the moment. Byron has had and still has a deep impact on me and on my personal process, just as any other place and time in my travel. Just as little as about three months of being in Byron Bay are sometimes enough for some big impact like this. That's the beauty of it all as well.
Byron made me experience it's bliss, it's beauty, it's paradise, it's lessons, it's flow, it's amazing people, and it's challenges. Because no personal process goes without them.
Where not long ago I was dancing through the streets of this town, with a beautiful person holding my hand in this dance, feeling like flying in a blissed out state, working a job for wich I found a great passion - massage - and meeting incredible lifechanging people...
Now life reminds me of it's eternal temporality, that unavoidable temporality that you can do nothing with except accepting it, because the temporality of life is the only certainty in life.
All of the sudden recently life reminded me of this and brought me back with both feet on the ground. Just my own feet and my own dance to dance.
At the same time I feel intense gratefullness and happiness for all that I have lived and experienced the past months here. Because it's been amazing, and it still is. This place is incredible, there really is something about it. It's magical, mindblowingly beautiful, lifechanging and healing.
I feel intense gratefullness and happiness for the fact that this situation actually showed me how strong connections can be, despite of the fact that in the end it doesn't turn out the way you first thought it would. It doesn't necessarily say something about a connection you have with someone. And that this can still exist in a different scenario as the one you had in mind before, as well.
Also feeling deep deep gratefullness because being in this situation showed me how many people I'm actually connected with, near or far, and how much involvment has been shown to me from so many different dear people around me - from around the corner to the other side of the world.
Can't express in words how much it means and how amazing that is to me.
With just 6 weeks (!!!) left on this (first) working holiday visa for Australia and with a confused mind - this obviously brings a lot of questions and not-knowing what my next steps will be. But fortunately many previous experiences during this travel have taught me to go with this as well.. To let these periods of unknowness be there, and trust that the right feeling and answer will come, when it's the right time.
Obviously, that time hasn't come yet, otherwise I wouldn't be here wondering what in the world I am going to do - wich means for now I'm not done with Byron Bay yet. I will be as soon as I feel I am.
The wide open space of the whole world and it's opportunities are right at my doorstep, like they always have been, maybe I just forgot a little bit about that along the way, lately.
The options are endless. Which at the moment feels quite confusing and overwhelming. But I know all I have to do is dive into myself again to feel wich ones really call out to me.
Maybe I'm ready to visit the places of my roots, and it's people, soon again. Maybe I'm ready to explore more of all the endless amazingness Australia has to offer. Maybe I'm ready fot both. Maybe I'm ready to breathe new air in another place - all new to discover.
Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.
All I know is that I am here. Exactly where I need to be, as always. And that I am thankful for all that comes my way, for this eternal temporality, because it helps me to grow and learn.
And all I know for now is that I will know. One breath at the time.
8 april 2015 11:17 | Door: elly
uit je verslag spreekt de levenshouding:
'go with the flow';
trust that existence takes care;
vertrouw op je innerlijke weten, dat zich zal doen kennen;
alles heeft de juiste tijd;
je kunt/moet je overgeven aan de onontkoombare veranderlijkheid van het bestaan.
het is een zo ándere verhouding tot het leven dan die van de meer 'maakbare' , controlerende linker-hersenhelft die zo dominant is hier.
ik ben benieuwd hoe jij en je reis zich verder zullen ontvouwen.
ik stuur je per mail nog een paar fotoos: ik was met de Paas bij je ouders die een mooi Italiaans kook-en opeten-feestje gaven.
we hebben je gemist...
liefs uit lente-Nederland,
11 april 2015 07:00 | Door: Francis
Dankjewel voor je woorden en herkenning! Altijd fijn om van je te horen :)
Heb nog geen mail ontvangen, zie heel graag de foto's en was er zo graag bij geweest!
Ben ook benieuwd hoe mijn reis zich verder zal ontwikkelen...
Wie weet zien we elkaar over niet al te lang.. zal jullie op de hoogte houden :)
Liefs, ook aan Peter!
Ps., heb nog steeds jou reishanddoekje en zaklampje en zijden laken (inmiddels wel inclusief wat meer gaten dan toen ik hem van je kreeg maar dat komt omdat ie heel vaak van pas is gekomen en me vaak wanneer nodig warm heeft gehouden ;) )
14 april 2015 20:41 | Door: Ingrid
Wat mooi beschreven en ja, wat een rijkdom dat je het leven zo kan en mag vieren...Iets wat we allemaal wel in ons hebben maar ons dat niet genoeg realiseren, en er vaak niet naar (kunnen) leven. Fijn dat je alles zo intens (be)leeft. Moeilijk ook wel om erop te durven vertrouwen dat het allemaal wel weer goed komt op z'n tijd, wanneer je er klaar voor bent, op jouw tijd!, Ben heel benieuwd wat je verdere stappen zullen zijn. Een najaarsdipje kan ik me ook nog wel herinneren toen wij op reis waren, moe van steeds maar weer je boeltje te pakken en verder te trekken... We horen het wel hoe en wat....Heel veel sterkte met alle plotselinge omgeslagen plannen en verdriet....Dapper hoe je ermee omgaat! heel veel liefs van ver maar oh zo dichtbij, un abbraccio forte! mam