Eternal temporality of life

Summer's at his end... You feel it in the air, in the vibes, the atmosphere, in the sky, in the wind, in the sun, and in the people. This is a place of constant movement and transition, travellers come and go constantly, and at the moment they're more going then coming.
The rain becomes more frequent and the days and nights start to get chilly and short... The touristic crazyness of Byron Bay came to a sudden end after a hectic Easter weekend wich filled this little town with weekend-tourists and Bluesfest party people.

Now the streets are quiet again. Like Byron catches back her breath after this weekend and the busy summer months.

I have a bit of this en-of-summertime sadness. That feeling you had when you were a kid the last days of your holiday. Not wanting it to end and not looking forward to going back to school.

Unfortunately at this point the summertime sadness about an ending holiday seems a bit easier to process than the one I feel in this phase. But life has it's own way of going and won't wait for me to be ready to go with it again. It just goes the way it has to go, for everyone, and all you need to do is accept it and go with it. At least it's easy to put down in words! Now I'll have to practice :)

A little series of events made me go through this phase at the moment. Byron has had and still has a deep impact on me and on my personal process, just as any other place and time in my travel. Just as little as about three months of being in Byron Bay are sometimes enough for some big impact like this. That's the beauty of it all as well.

Byron made me experience it's bliss, it's beauty, it's paradise, it's lessons, it's flow, it's amazing people, and it's challenges. Because no personal process goes without them.

Where not long ago I was dancing through the streets of this town, with a beautiful person holding my hand in this dance, feeling like flying in a blissed out state, working a job for wich I found a great passion - massage - and meeting incredible lifechanging people...

Now life reminds me of it's eternal temporality, that unavoidable temporality that you can do nothing with except accepting it, because the temporality of life is the only certainty in life.

All of the sudden recently life reminded me of this and brought me back with both feet on the ground. Just my own feet and my own dance to dance.

At the same time I feel intense gratefullness and happiness for all that I have lived and experienced the past months here. Because it's been amazing, and it still is. This place is incredible, there really is something about it. It's magical, mindblowingly beautiful, lifechanging and healing.

I feel intense gratefullness and happiness for the fact that this situation actually showed me how strong connections can be, despite of the fact that in the end it doesn't turn out the way you first thought it would. It doesn't necessarily say something about a connection you have with someone. And that this can still exist in a different scenario as the one you had in mind before, as well.

Also feeling deep deep gratefullness because being in this situation showed me how many people I'm actually connected with, near or far, and how much involvment has been shown to me from so many different dear people around me - from around the corner to the other side of the world.
Can't express in words how much it means and how amazing that is to me.

With just 6 weeks (!!!) left on this (first) working holiday visa for Australia and with a confused mind - this obviously brings a lot of questions and not-knowing what my next steps will be. But fortunately many previous experiences during this travel have taught me to go with this as well.. To let these periods of unknowness be there, and trust that the right feeling and answer will come, when it's the right time.

Obviously, that time hasn't come yet, otherwise I wouldn't be here wondering what in the world I am going to do - wich means for now I'm not done with Byron Bay yet. I will be as soon as I feel I am.

The wide open space of the whole world and it's opportunities are right at my doorstep, like they always have been, maybe I just forgot a little bit about that along the way, lately.
The options are endless. Which at the moment feels quite confusing and overwhelming. But I know all I have to do is dive into myself again to feel wich ones really call out to me.

Maybe I'm ready to visit the places of my roots, and it's people, soon again. Maybe I'm ready to explore more of all the endless amazingness Australia has to offer. Maybe I'm ready fot both. Maybe I'm ready to breathe new air in another place - all new to discover.
Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.

All I know is that I am here. Exactly where I need to be, as always. And that I am thankful for all that comes my way, for this eternal temporality, because it helps me to grow and learn.
And all I know for now is that I will know. One breath at the time.

Love.